Saturday, July 23, 2016

Just be nice...

Do you ever feel like life needs a "do-over" button?
What about a "that didn't really happen and I'm going to wake up" button?
How about a...
"That really did happen, I feel broken, but I'm alive and I got this"
"It's time to re-group and re-think and re-evaluate what's important to me and my life journey?

Since my mom has passed away, I have felt all 4 of the above. I have learned so much about life, about myself and about what's important.

People... people are important.
Nothing matters more than people. My (everyone's) number one priority should be other people. How we treat them, how we view them, how we love them, how we talk to them, and how we look at them.

When you lose someone close to you, you learn that no one should ever be taken for granted, because life is quick. Life is too quick and life is unfair. It is completely unfair.
But you know what? That's okay, because I have also learned that the saying "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger", Is completely and without doubt... true.
I have stopped in my tracks. I have re-evaluated my life. I have discovered what brings me peace and I know what adds to my stress.
I have a clear vision of what I want from life and I have a plan to conquer my hearts true passions.
I love so many people, and though I will always take into consideration their advice to me, only I know my true hearts desire.
My heart is full. SO full of much curiosity, and much aspiration . I'm blessed that my needs are met. So I'm on to those desires.

My life has taken a slightly new route...

Life Change #1. I've dropped my Degree program. I'm extremely passionate about the environment and I'll be on my soapbox often, but I don't like to work all of the time, like alllllll of the time. I want to travel, a lot, but dang it.. I also need to work. So what's a close 2nd? Teaching. I love teaching. I have enough College/University credits to get me pretty close to a Math Teaching Degree, and guess what? There is a need for Math teachers all over the world, they are on the job shortage list in England! (If I decide to go that route). With teaching I woud get all major holidays off... AND THE WHOLE SUMMER!!!! I have worked for 2 different school districts in Texas, it is so sweet having the summer off! And 2 weeks at Christmas? SHWAAAWING! I start classes the end of August.
Life Change #2. I have opened a slightly higher interest rate savings account, to save for a property in the UK. I won't be able to purchase a property until I have my teaching degree, because my current position of working for the State of Texas, does not afford me the luxury of paying for a mortgage in the UK. However, I hope to pay most of a property off with cash, this girl is saving her buns off... I've also put the money where it's hard to access. I opted for an online saving account. Withdrawals take time, I'm not tempted at all to touch that money.
Life Change #3. I've started investing. More on that as I learn and invest. I've been working with many elderly people lately that are on such a low fixed income... my heart breaks for them. I have taken control of my retirement. I have a 401k with my job, but I just don't feel that's enough. I do have a world to explore, after all!
Life Change #4. I've decided that I am going to be single. For a long time. This is a first for me. I've always had a man in my life, whether married, dating or super serious, there has always been someone. And you know what? Because of that, I have never put my own dreams first. I can continue to be a good mother and do what I want in life (travel, travel, travel). But on the relationship front, I seem to attract men that want to control me, I need to be single for awhile, to also figure out what's up with that mental choice of mine. Oh and just so you know, I LOVE being single. I do not answer to anyone, I go where I please, I never get accused of anything because of jealousy, I can have male friends without question, I spend my money on what I want, I don't have to put up with any BS whatsoever. I feel independent and strong.
I'm not saying there is no such thing as a great relationship, I'm saying it's just not something I want right now, it's not something I need and I like this new peace I have found. I've never had it before and I really like it. I am focusing on me, my children, my career... Life is just where I want it to be, for now.
I hope that life finds you questioning where you are and how you are. By searching, by questioning and by stretching ourselves... by experiencing both pain and joy, we grow.
In closing I'd like to share the number one thing I've learned that will make you a better person, as well as content those around you... "Just be nice". That's it. That's all. Try it, you'll see.

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